Day 180

So, by the end of last week i had lost my mojo, my inspiration, my motivation. Spent a day in the house in my pyjamas, watching Friends reruns online.... And i couldn't find the energy to get up and be active.

But then we come to this morning.

I woke up with a new feeling of life between my bones and i psyched myself up to walk Mt Roy. A beast of a mountain that overlooks Wanaka. I was up and ready and got prepared with layers and food and water. I hitched a lift - for the first time ever - some of the way, then walked along the lake some of the way, the tried to get another lift but none was playing ball. So i started walking again. By this time it was 11am... Bearing in mind it takes at least 5-6 hours to walk up/down Mt Roy, I started to wonder what I was doing in the middle of nowhere with little idea how far i was from the beginning of the track.

After a few minutes of walking along this road to nowhere, I decided maybe today isn't my day. Maybe starting the walk after 11am is a bad idea.

So i returned to the lake-side track, very disappointed and disheartened. Actually pretty upset. I'd got it into my head I would get up there today, I had expectations of how my day would go. Now I know avery wise man who regularly reminds me that expectations are what lead to disappointment... and today i really felt that.

But!

I've turned my day around! I sat for a while reading 'Zan Mind: A Beginners Mind' and it reminded me of how little life you actually get, how short life is and that to truly appreciate life is hard - but doable. So I had a re-think and took a track I haven't walked before. Stopping every so often to photograph or sit on a bench and read or just play on these tiny secluded beaches that crop up every now and then.

Today has taught me how important it is to be surrounded by good people and good literature. If it weren't for my wise old man and my book I would have walked home and felt low all day, thinking of all the fun I could be having (if you can call walking a mountain 'fun' as such) instead of creating new fun and making the most of my day.

I am lucky and happy and appreciative of those who make me a better person every day, and of the literature that's been introduced to me.

Today I walked 30k without even realising it, and I am very proud of that.